The Daily G.I.F.T. from The GratiDude

My belly got smaller but my Heart got bigger? How’s that work?

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I had this photo, below, tucked away over in my kitchen behind a plant and I didn’t really remember that I had my very own FAT/Before photo right here at my fingertips.

Because I have been stuck in the Meat Suit known as Kevin Carpenter since 1968, I often forget so many have only met me in the last five years or so. Like a Housing Market or Stock Market Cycle, I’ve had a few Fat Phases in my life, including the one in the photo below where I think I weighed about 40 pounds more than I weigh now.

210 there on Oahu then in 2012, and 170 now.

The FatiDude, I mean GratiDude, on the Left, Gary McCord, full-time shit talker and joke teller, occasional golfer, on the Right.

It’s hard for me to go back and remember the energy that I was experiencing when this photo was taken, and the amount of anxiety that I was experiencing in the background of my subconscious mind on a regular basis.  

Remember, about 95% of your thoughts occur in the subconscious. Just a reminder.

I realize now, of course, in hindsight, that my anxiety came from multiple sources, including unrecognized and unresolved trauma, as well as an overall feeling of dissatisfaction with the path that I had chosen in my life.  

I was very happy with some aspects of my life, however, I felt like I made a choice on a pathway that was irreversible, and I would never get to my true personal calling from God of helping people on a day-to-day basis as a profession, even if I didn’t know what that profession was at that time.

So many unknowns and a feeling of regret, instead of looking forward to beautiful mysteries, I was feeling that I had promises unfulfilled, I was lacking a pursuit of personal greatness. I chose Alcohol to drown out the sort of mental “Princess and the Pea syndrome” of perpetual existential discomfort.

On the other hand…..I can also look at this picture and think about all the incredible people that I was meeting and getting to know at this time of my life that were big bright spots.  

Many of those people become close and even closer since I became sober from alcohol, and good friends like Charles Lorimer from Ontario and  Andy “ Umi “Sexton of Oahu are two very dear friends that I spent time with back in 2012 when I was in Hawaii.

So I’m not throwing the baby out with the bathwater and saying that everything was horrible in my life, however, just reflecting on the fact that I was not completely at peace in my behavior and my physical appearance shows me that distinctively.

I had a wonderful time this day playing with this tall guy with the mustache, Gary something, can’t remember his name ha ha ha.

Gary McCord was hilarious and we bantered off-color humor the entire day. and I had the opportunity to meet his wife later on that evening at sushi. All in all this was one incredible day.

There is no shame in my game because I realize I had to be a “Fat Bastard” first in order to become “Austin Powers” second.

My dear friend Umi there in Oahu, who is 99th generation Hawaiian, and my big brother who I love so much now, has seen my change and celebrated my com) in my embrace of faith and the love in my heart.

I say a big Mahalo this morning for my circuitous path to the generous present moment of now, and I invite all of you to ride with me, Charles, Umi, and Gary, as we hang 10 while we putt for Eagle with an Attitude of Gratitude.

EVERY DAY:

Love

and

Gratitude

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